micaelaboogaloo

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 03:56:41 GMT

I see it around me
I see it in everything
I could be so much more than this

I said my goodbyes
This is my sundown
I'm going to be so much more than this

With one hand high
You'll show them your progress
You'll take your time
But no one cares
No one cares...
No one cares...

I need you to show the way from crazy
I want to be so much more than this

With one hand high
You'll show them your progress
You'll take your time
But no one cares

I could be so much more than this
I want to be so much more than this

Good good bye
Lovely time
Good good bye
Tinsel shine

Good good bye
I'll be fine
Good good bye
Good good night

^__^ moving my LJ, it'll be completely friends only, I'll add you guys <3

Also, i just love Jimmy Eat World.. And Coldplay.

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 00:51:30 GMT

Anyone who wants anything from Japan, should give me their mailing address. ;p

I'm just saying..

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 20:03:41 GMT

Link

Let's see....you got 62%

You are the Hero of Time, Link. You are courageous and strong. You
often feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders, and in
reality it is. Now stop reading this and go kick Ganon's ass, rescue
Zelda, and get that pesky Triforce of Power once and for all!

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 57% on mushrooms

Link: The what Nintendo character are u Test written by cottonmouth on OkCupid Free Online Dating

Sweet. I'd be impressed with myself if the person who made the quiz wasn't a total moron though. ;p

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 08:16:28 GMT

Tonight I laughed so hard I thought my stomach was going to explode, I smiled until my face hurt.

Thanks to Jaslyne and Hutton. I think I'm going to have a lot of fun now.

Also, interview tomorrow :D

A bit sunshine for my rainy day.... It's a metaphor.

WTF's a meta for~?
I am so happy;) I really truly <3 that drewkiddo. and my jasbot.

Also, Marina tomorrow night. I am excited I can finally beat Fatal Frame II. (Playing it with anyone else just wouldn't be the same ;p<3)

Then once i'm done with that, I'll finish up .hack, and get rid of them as fast as I can.

Nothing of his will remain in my bedroom after this weekend.

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 16:31:48 GMT

I feel like my world is falling apart.

I've got nothing to look forward to in my life, I can't stand it here in Kamloops, but I don't even care about going to Japan anymore. It's all there right in front of me, I don't even care.

And I'm watching myself fall deeper into this depression, I can tell that I'm getting worse, and I am watching myself make decisions that I know aren't made well.. And I'm not doing a goddamn thing about it. I'm low on motivation, I guess. As of today, I've been crying every night for a week straight. I'm sure everyone's going to get fed up with me.

I'm fed up with this too. I really am. I just wish I could get this over with.

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 18:00:45 GMT

I'm sorry, everyone.

This is all going to be over soon.

And I'm so glad.

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 20:06:10 GMT

Oh god..

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I would have a orgasm if someone shot me in the face.

=[

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it hurts so much.. < / 3

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 03:17:23 GMT

Hey, maybe I'll sleep tonight.

But seriously..

Honestly, why am I still awake? My whole body feels so sore.. wtf. Passport crap is getting done tomorrow, I gotta remember to ask when we'll be heading down to Vancouver too. Tuesday I graduate from Broadcasting school. Yay. I gotta write the socials final, too. On Tuesday. Then maybe go to Lyssas? Yes yes yes.

On Wednesday, I'm probably going to head up to Ruckers. Ideally, at least. I bought a big deal. It's all mine. I've never done that before. I AM SO OUTRAGEOUS BOLOLOL. -_-;; I am broke, too. I hope my mom doesn't find out. I spent that money so fast. Fuck. I didn't even get a lot out of it. Oh well. $100 doesn't buy much these days.

Eryn just informed me that she is having a party Wednesday, and I'm welcome to bring Hutton. Awesome. I just might.

I hope I can spend a lot of time with friends this summer. I.. really really hope I can remember who I was before I met Jeff. That's who I want to be. I liked myself more then.

Who am I!?

FUCK!

Rheanne, I miss you. <333

I miss all my old friends. =[

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 11:25:48 GMT

Let's try this again.

For real this time.

Sat, 14 May 2005 16:42:38 GMT

I am so close to going to Japan. Oh my fucking god.

Things are turning around already!

I really hope I can pull this off~

Sat, 14 May 2005 04:46:06 GMT

You know, it's not your fault I'm so miserable. Everyone, Mom, Dad, Jefe.. Eveyrone I lash out at, I'm miserable and it's my own damned fault.

Thanks for talking to me Brayden, I never thought I'd say that. Never, ever in a thousand years. You've reminded me why we got along so well in the first place. I'm so sorry I hurt you, and you're helping me realize what it is I've done wrong lately with everything else.

I really do need to pay more attention to other people's feelings. I'm sorry everyone. I'm so sorry for everything that I have ever done. I used to say that people's minds were so easy to fuck with. I used to say it, and I used to take advantage of that freely.

Of course I realize now that I was wrong. Not only wrong with half my beliefs, but wrong also to go ahead and do a lot of the things I've done. I used to think that nobody would ever notice if you went ahead and did something right. But I was wrong. I know now that everything counts for something. People do talk, and although bad news spreads fast; good news spreads too. It just takes a while longer. Words do get around because, well, yeah people just don't STFU. So I mean, if you're going to be talked about, make yourself a postive person to recall.

I've screwed over an excellent friendship recently that I have been really regretting. I'm lost in what I want to do, what I should do, and what I have to do. I know I've been reacting poorly, I've been very inconsiderate and I've hurt that person really badly. Almost similar to how I was to Brayden, I've been lost in lies, mistrust and fits of anger and frustration. I havent been very fair to this friend of mine. And I want them to know that now I am thinking more clearly about the situation. I didn't mean for all this pain that I caused you, I honestly didn't. I want more than anything, when this is all cleared up, for us to try again. You always believed in me, and thought I could change. I screwed that up, but I think soon, I might be able to actually do it. I can get past all these lies. And I want you to know that. I will come back for you. When all this crap is over and done with, I promise.

In conclusion, what started off as a grumpy day is now turning into quite the learning expirience. I have a few people I have to run off and make apologies to. Thanks to this spark in my brain, and thanks to Brayden, I'm able to set myself up on the proper tracks. What kind of tracks? Railroad tracks? Perhaps.

TO SHINING TIME STATION~
-Micaela

Sat, 14 May 2005 03:57:25 GMT

I don't know what's going on with me. I'm such an asshole lately. It seems that everything I say, to everyone, has been more or less intended to hurt them. It's in the way I talk to my parents, it's in the way I talk to Jeff, and more noticeably, in the way I talk to Andrew and a lot of my friends too.

I don't know when I began spouting this hate for everyone, I'm just finding every little reason to be upset. It's like nothing anyone can do will please me, nothing anyone can do will make me happy. I am upset and I want everyone else to be upset too. What the hell, Micaela. Why do you have to be so goddamn miserable?

I miss when I was sick and I had peace and quiet, and people would respect the fact that I just wanted to sleep, or be alone. Just because I can walk on my own, and eat on my own, and function near perfectly again, everyone thinks it's alright to drag themselves back to their little spot over my shoulder where they can monitor my every move and tell me what I should be doing.

Do you have any idea how annoying it is to talk to Hutton on the phone when my parents are going "Want me to help you out of this one?" "Want us to ask for the phone so you have to go?" "Want us to talk to him?"

Honestly, Fuck off.
Everyone just fuck off.
I can handle things.
I don't need all your shitty suggestions.
I don't need your advice.

I'm getting along just fine on my own. Seriously. I mean, hell, things are going great. I just love using people left right and center. I mean, I love getting what I want, at the expense of my friends. That makes me a great person and I feel good on the inside! Seriously!

Look, I know i'm an asshole, and honestly, I wouldn't give a person like me a second glance. I'm not happy with who I am, and sure I know I have the power to change that and everything. It's just that I don't want to.

No, Not that I don't want to, I probably would if I could. It just involves more work than I am willing to put in. I'm lazy, I do what I have to, I do what I can.

I think this is fair enough warning, to all who read it, there you have it. A lot of people have been waiting for this sort of confession for a long time. I know I can think of at least three. :P I'm an asshole, I'm a bitch, I'm a slut, I'm going to use you. I probably already have. Continue to be my friend, and I'll probably fuck you over.

Unfortunately all my friends are fucking morons. Yeah, you all suck. You'll read this and go "Oh Mic's just in one of her moods." Oh well, I tried to warn you. I can use idiots. Stick around, so I can fuck you over, just like I did to every single fucking person who ever believed I could change. Hahahaha.

Burn in hell, faggots. What a tangent.

Love you guys~
Micaela

Thu, 12 May 2005 21:03:26 GMT

School next week~ Yay.

The one thing I like about staying at home sick, is that I don't have to wear any pants. :O
Mm, Brent I hope you get your 8th Style soon. I can't remember what it says ;(.. I wish I was seeing MSI in Vancouver tonight. Brayden better take pictures. He'd better.

That kid is still a faggot though. Its not like we actually get along.. >.>

Someone should download all of Kimi Wa Petto and burn it for me so I have something to watch. It's such a good series. If you liked GTO Live Action, then you'd probably like Kimi Wa Petto, it's cute, although the first episode is very very slow. O.O;

It's basically about this lonely woman, who finds a boy who's been all beaten up and crap, she takes care of him, and when he gets better, he asks to live with her. She agrees so long as he agrees to live with her as a pet, not as a human being, thus stripping him of all his rights. It sounds weird when I try to explain it. T.T

It's so cute though. I want to watch more of it. Someone download it and burn it and send it to me~

Anyway, I got homework to do, so I gotta run.
Wishing I could see MSI~
-Mic

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 21:02:12 GMT

Today Jeff changed his gmail password.

Dang.

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 21:22:06 GMT

Okay guys, you know what.

I've had a long realatonship with jeff and I digfure I know enough about relationshts now that i can pass on my advicfe to you about relationships

sdoul mates are made not born , by this i mean that you cannot find someone and adsume they are the one. they wotn know you right off the bat, come on, dont be stupid,

what amkes a relationship is the time you psend together, the things yo8 accept eachother for and the arguments you get in that you can gret though together. I know Igor rheoufh mqany arguments and it made me feel like i had a strong relationship even though i didnt.

by enduring al kinds of hardships and leantring about one another,y our rleationship will grtow strong. espceiaally as you leanr to trust one another/. don't expect this to happen rihht off the bat either

also, dont beloeve in destiny because that shit is bullllllshit

omg. if two poeple are so ment to be together, then honestly, I dont thinky ou're going to fin "the one" right now. I'm saying this to everyone on my list, because they are all at their early twneties in the latest. I rememeber thinkin I was ging to be with jeremy for the rest of my life, ten jeff, but

obviously this was bulshit. I cant make those kind of decisons at my age/

and aso, I am glad I hit jeff nad brent his glsses because now he is teling peple lies about me and its making me really mad.

i'ms orry I just had to tell you. because I read peple like mandi, and I hear poeple like brent, and I read jermy and there is still so much time left in everuones lifes and relationshops are really just thre to help make the time go faster

omg so if you wnat to live forveevr, date someone.

what?

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 17:32:05 GMT

Here's an update:

I am awesome. Still. As Always.

^____^

Thanks for coming up Brent, I'll mail you your 8th Style soon.

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 02:06:26 GMT

I feel like I'm going to destroy a lot of friendships.

But maybe its about time I start speaking my mind...

I'm sorry, everyone. I can't be Mic anymore..

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 22:16:08 GMT

Lmao, I'm watching some girl all dressed in pink, with a purse in her hand. She's walking up this batch hill, terrible posture. She keeps taking breaks, and looking behind her, and then pressing onward. Just watching her makes me feel tired, then I remember its really not that big of a hill.

LOLOLOL.

"'cos when I look inside my heart, and i tell the truth to me, loud and clear my soul cries out with total honesty~
I need fire fire fire~ to keep me warm, I've got to feel the fire"
-Gackt

Reminder to self: Take three deep breaths, and think rationally before responding to anything Jeff says.

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 04:25:05 GMT

"Its over"

wtf does that mean?

Fuck him, I don't want this at all.

He wanted to punch me through his fucking screen? I think I know now exactly how he felt.

I don't think I'll go to school tomorrow.

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 19:43:09 GMT

Mm, its not my fault... is it?

=\

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 19:16:06 GMT

Once again, Livejournal gets me in trouble. Greaaat. FUCKIN GREAT EH? FUCKING CHRIST FUCK.

.. I think I give up this time. It seems that I can't have any sort of escape from anything without hurting someone.. No more evasion accounts for me.

So there you go, Jefe. Read the entire goddamn thing.

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 22:12:55 GMT

I'm thirsty.

That is all. For now!

mufufufufufufufuu niggles who

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 19:14:00 GMT

Jam Jam Reggae.

Last night was fun. Thanks for coming brent.

Justin, I hope your leg feels better. lolomgosh ;)

harrr this be an update.

first time i've gotten a prize in the competition in .. a month or so. heh. yayayayayaya. I need to AA so deep and witch doctor before you come back brent. and pass max300 ;)

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 05:24:47 GMT

I love you~~~~. Do you know that? You should. Because I do.
Nobody hears it enough.

That is all.

:D

I'm craving ceasar salad. With chicken in it. God, I need chicken so bad. I'm so sick of glossets... SO.. addictive. Yet.. So .. Sugrary.. SO DROP THE BOMB

(what we gotta do is build momentum
if you need the right tools invent 'em
ride the wave of time come feel the rhythm
the march to the future has begun get with 'em!)

I should go sit down with my keyboard and try again to recompose musics and shiyat. Those were fun times.

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 17:40:31 GMT

boogalooo

What a retarded word.

Who wat, who, wat, whowat, who wat? ALRIGHT~

DDDDDDR? D2R? LOL MAYBE OK

-_------_---_---_--- LOL WAT NIGAA WHO NIGGA WAT LOL NIGGA PLEAAASE

fin.